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放得下

Posted by WK at 23:34

之前整整两个月，每一天晚上我的手机震个不停，我们俩的短讯一封一封没停地发来发去。有时，我还很忍着没听到你的声音，会打给你听听你的声音，听到了晚上就睡得特别好！

之前的考试，也可能因为晚上读书有你的简讯、有你的声音，虽然距离远在几十公里但是我也仍然觉得你一直在陪着我，使我心里觉得你一直在我的身边，根本忘记了什么叫闷，什么叫疲倦，读到忘记了时间。每次我都会顾到你累了，你告诉我你要睡了，我才肯去睡觉。之后发觉这是多余的！你根本就是一个很自爱、自律的女生。

有时想起之前的一些回忆，我的确觉得很开心，但是我在想是不是自私的我因为要满足自己、要提升自己，而罢了你的私人时间。我知道有时候晚上你数学不会，又没人帮你时，你很无助，你需要我的帮忙。但是我觉得我没有了你，最多晚上睡之前少一个人跟我讲晚安、下午坐巴士回家没人陪在我的旁边、闷的时候没人跟我解闷、生气也没人叫我冷静，更何况是你数学比我好的还有很多…很多…但我觉得这样也不是完全没好处的，至少我不需要再做我多余的担心、不需要太过关心、不需每次很迟了，你没睡，我就做了你的阿嬤罗罗嗦嗦叫你去睡觉，但是没有了一定会觉得不自然。

今天已经第六天了，还是会觉得今天少做了一些事情。虽然这几天内有时做完东西，拿起手机打好了简讯，才想到没有了，不会再有了。不论我们之前是否开始过，我还是很谢谢你这两个月来对我这样好，直到现在我要开始适应回，会回去什么事情都少了一个人跟我分担。

放心！这世界上很多东西等着我去做。我很快的，伤口痊愈了，就会放下你，去追求我的理想，我的未来。我不会再想太多了…不会再踩过界限了…

By WK July 09''

Good Bye

Posted by WK at 20:58

This is for my people who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my people who lost their bosom friend
Lift your head to the sky

Cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn’t get it because I've wrong
I didn’t know why you didn’t show up sometimes
On sunday mornings and I missed you
But when we talked too

All them grown full things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
I loved you but you don't
There’s so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”

“I wish I could find a way try not to cry”

As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place

Your life become happier
Still I’ll give the whole world to see your face
And I’m bragging right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I’ve done
And you never got to see me back at number one

I remember when you angry somebody and you tell me

And I'm the one trying to cool you down

And the Winnie Pooh I gave you

I thought myself were so strong

That I can accept what happen into me just like my past

But it’s so hard for me to accept the fact you’re gone forever

And soon as you find the one really love you more than I

And he can make you happy but not like mine
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
And I’m bragging right next to you where
It feels like you gone too soon

As time goes by

And soon as I can put you down
Still I'm very sad now
Don't know what can I do now,

I can't contact you now,

And maybe you don't want me to contact you,

Sorry for what I've did

I now not hope for anything more

Just want back a good friend

Lastly,

Maybe you wont see I wrote this kind of thing to you anymore after this

And until one day if you can't open me inbox with that password,

Means I've hundred percent put you down

I'm sorry
The hardest thing to do now is say bye bye to you!!!!

Edited from lyric ByeBye-MariahCarey

By WK July 09''

The Night Without your "Good Night"

Posted by WK at 01:02

Tomorror still have 3 paper of test. I have finish study all by last exam but I know I've forget some. So I've to read through again, but now what's the time?! 1.30am already, I haven't finish do my revision. When I started to read it, I think of other things, I can't even concentrate for half hours. I tried but can't also. That's why, now is midnight I still open computer and typying here!

Yesterday (Wednesday) afternoon I've headache very serious because not enough sleep. And I know something happen to her. Know that she is in troulble, and don't know how to tell it to her parents. I know you're worried but that's all your problem. Why should I worry about it?! I can't keep myself from worry about her, she know that now I'm trying to get back my heart without chasing her. I think it's difficult but I've to try it!

Actually now, I don't want to text to you because I know she's angry about that incident, maybe angry what I've told her in bus just know, it's ok for her to angry me. I very worry about her now! Will she being scolded? Did she feel unhappy now? Can she study nicely now without thinking noncense? I don't know! I've told her that I today won't going to sms her and let her to cool down herself, but my heart is difficult now! It's hard for me without smsing with you for a night! Today she's not going to say "good night" to me before I sleep, no one will chat with me to make me not feeling boring and now I'm not tired at all but no mood to study. I still worry about her! Can I stop it?! It's difficult! I think I no need to study now because it's really wasting time to looking at the book and thinking of her! However, I wish to see her smile at me tomorror.

Hope you can score tomorror! Meet you tomorror in bus. Good Night!

By WK July 09''