今天一大早，我心情也不是很好了，早早被人吵醒之后就不能继续睡下去，想想有什么要做…对了！昨天晚上她好想再写一些东西，就去看看好了。
看了有什么感觉？咳…当然心里有点酸酸的感觉，但算了！我觉得这种感觉应该留在我心里不会久，酸酸最多嘛neutralise掉咯！哈哈…我的确也不是很赞成现在就开始谈恋爱，但是都说了人类做的事情总是矛盾，我喜欢上她，很想很想……但是我又怕万一分手了之后的后果。一个这样好的朋友，难道不要？其实他明知我喜欢她，没想办法逃避我，我也很开心了，至少接受我对她的好，但是如果他觉得我一直烦着她又不讲出来，我真的会很伤心！
以现在我跟他的关系，的确让人有东西要讲。马来西亚华人就是这样，一点点事情满天飞，越讲越惨。但是这种东西，讲久都会累啦！我相信不久后就不会有人在讲下去了。我们的友情也不可能因为无聊人的几句话就影响得到！讲真的，如果给我看到他和另外一个人开始了，我跟她的友情可能就会开始变了，就算我没故意去改变它，人类正常反应就是这样，一定会自然地显出一些反应。没办法，再重复：爱情是自私的！
我关心她、对她好，她领了，我就觉得很开心了，不管她有没有真正地喜欢我。她现在对我这样好！我已经很满足了。咳…她写那篇东西写到三点！
By WK June 2009''
可能我想起那件事情太生气了，越写越多……哈哈！算了吧！我一年半的时间当学费吧，有时以时间当学费学出来的东西效果反而更好，更难忘记这些经验。这些学来的是跟着我们一生，钱只是跟着一下子，那RM96.40也顺便当成学费吧！反正都用了一年半的时间。以后我绝对不会再犯这种浪费时间的错了！现在要做的就是搞好自己的学业，只要有帮助到学业进步的，我就要了她！不管怎样，她接不接受我也好，只要我一天还爱她，我都会把自己提升到最好，证明我是真的爱她！能够让自己进步的，我怎样都不会放过的了！
有时生气了，坐下来静静的想一想她，会觉得心情松了下来，不会这样生气，反而有些人想都不可以想，会死人！我生气起来，不得了！
无论如何！经一事，长一智！
By WK June 2009''
Cool down already.
咳！放假了。我总觉得有点闷，周而复始的生活让我觉得闷了。但我怎样也觉得现在获得比以前有意义。之前。我在团体活跃时，有活动就去，晒得自己的皮肤也变色了，熬得自己又瘦，脸上的豆豆又多。每次活动回家，“惨咯！做么常常出去晒太阳，晒到像马来人这样！不可以不要的么？傻的！”我婆婆总说类似的话。我当时听了当然觉得烦，还后悔为什么当初不要听婆婆讲？不去活动，多好…去了又不会得到什么，还搞到自己现在也后悔了，也没用了啦！只能够借此经验告诉自己不要再犯这样的错！不要因为利益而背叛自己的兴趣，去参加这样的东西折磨自己。
虽然这些东西过了，现在假期我也没去学校参加什么训练营了，反而觉得在家里写部落、出去和朋友打球、陪家人，这种生活不好吗？咳……
以前，我哪有这种生活过？只是为了那一点点的课外活动分数，去所谓舒解压力的课外活动，压力更大了，当然有时在家里会难以控制自己的情绪，为了一点点事情就和家人吵架。压力大没有出气筒就一直对着电脑打打杀杀，弄得自己成绩也一塌糊涂，害得自己也趁迷上电脑游戏，老实说，以前下午班时，几乎每一天都早到学校出席活动，不管非法合法都去，但是也没恐怖到每天都有活动，有时就去补习。早上这样早醒去活动，累到妈妈都认不出孩子了，下午在学校用了设备不齐全的厕所洗完澡，还要上课，当然我不是铁人，我每次在学校上课都在睡觉，有时心情很不好，人家跟我讲话我又不太理他们，变成很多人说我是团体的狗，除了活动朋友也不理了。当然他们没讲出来，在后面讲是当然的。之后没去了，有人告诉我，我没去活动后人好了很多，知道为什么吗？我没了压力，全身好像松掉了。
去活动？对我现在来说，都是那些缺乏父母爱的人才会去，除了那些没压力的团体啦。以前我去活动的那期间跟父母的感情可说是很不好，早上到晚上我不在家的时间还比我爸爸多没时间沟通，有就是“下次camping, camp fees四十块，还要画对旗明天再我去五金店买”说到这些，我还记得我以前团体的走狗欠我钱不要还，我帮他们出钱出力，去五金店买东西，钱都帮他们出了，现在还不要还我钱，虽然那东西我也有用到，但是当时不是我买，他们都吃沙了！一年了！不要将我破坏名誉，日新国中皇家男警团没有男生的样子，没有绅士风度，里面充满不正当竞争，内乱、捧上司lampa的人多到你怕！说些经验来分享啦！以前中一我在里面可说最强的那个，但是我敢说不是我强，因为日新的学生嘛，全部小学只会读书玩电脑，没什么运动。结果我被他们认为是最强的那个，日新的学生头脑是非常厉害的，当时我团体里的朋友没什么能相信，到现在他们以前做过什么我也不知道，我只要告诉全世界，我只是找到一个笨的，做事情不干净，被我发觉他以前的确是不爽我，用了一个很不错的方法让上司不爽我。
开始是他是一上司的身分叫我回家每天pumping两百下，叫我练给自己结实一点。但是我就是很看不起他，我一开始就觉得这个人不是好人，所以我根本没跟着去做。没想到他叫我去练过后的一星期，竟然有人来问我你一天是不是pumping两百下，我就否认。给你你听到了第一个感觉是什么？一定是之前“吹水”，之前车大炮告诉人家让人家觉得自己那么强，结果我的名誉在团体开始这样被开始毁掉，之后那个家伙滚走了那个团体。当初我因为团体我在团体火入魔什么都不知道，也不知道为什么上司突然这样对我有偏见，可能他就是其中一个。我也不排除其他跟我更近的朋友有份打小报告，讲我坏话，但是现在不用紧了，我都不在那个狗团体了！要知道那个家伙是谁吗？是我学校的大多数都会认识他，邱伟良，你很厉害！下次做这种东西之后，屁股搽干净！你自己有没有做过这种事情你知道，不满我？ngwk@rocketmail 等你！我要借此机会警告大家，做人要回选朋友，不是选在大家面前都受欢迎的，是选跟你合得来的！邱伟良，你还要我写这样多来告诉大家你是什么人，你很伟大了。至少你让我在团体里醒了，让我知道原来我的团体里没有好人！
讲真，我在团体里一年半的时间，我学不到什么东西，只是在我离开后想起以前的事情学到做事情要再三考虑，不要做了才后悔！包括physical，我在团体里面完全没进补到，我反而觉得越练越差。你妈的！我突然想到你，前任男警第二副主席当初我很给脸，你叫我回去团体时，低声下气讲到自己很伟大，我告诉你！你操他妈的你没有下体，我完全没有感觉到你的诚意！你叫我回去团体你随便讲几句你以为你自己能感动到我的话就可以了吗？我教你！要知己知彼，才能百战百胜！你说什么为了我牺牲你一节的时间来劝我、我在团体成长啦、团体帮了我很多啦等…讲出来你都没脸啊！你拍戏啊？拍戏都没有做到这样啦！还叫我一大堆团体的“朋友”在我面前劝我，一个人讲一句话感动我，随便叫一个人在我面前哭给我看我就感动，还问我团体有什么东西要改善可以告诉你啦，什么死鬼。咳！还好我给你脸，当我送你我几个小时的时间听你讲话啦！最好你看到我在写什么啦！如果当时是现在，你叫得到我喜欢的人来劝我，我还可能会回去啦！可是我告诉你，我当时喜欢的那个人，那时候对我来讲没威胁！你的团体现在怎样？连你自己的朋友都滚完了！倒了！倒了！看看你现在的主席啦！可以拍戏咯！我以后有钱，最好团体已经倒了，不然好要花钱跟你们买版权拍戏！倒了就不用买…哈哈！我现在多自在，I do what I wish to do！残离题！
接下去，以前的训练营、什么鬼活动，我都没学到什么东西，露营感想什么提升了自己什么东西都是假的啦！你还害我的脚现在有后遗症，不能站太久，太久膝盖剧痛都没跟你们这些走狗算！那天要不是那个老师，我的脚早就不能用了！还有。我的RM96.40哪里去？吃钱也不要吃这样多啦！我允许你们吃掉四十块罢了！还有五十块好还我了，虽然只是一点，吃掉也不用紧啦，不能怪狗吃多吗他也不能改，狗脑！不会思考！
总之，再次声明团体没教到我什么，我的脚的肌肉，是我小学就练到的！还有！露营时你只都我多不爽吗？一天三小时睡眠，国家运动员都不用这样，你知道为什么吗？应为你们的方法全错了！一天岁三小时，其余的守夜、跑学校、跳舞……
都不知道你们什么人来，做这种东西，无聊！我也不知道我自己什么人来好要去活动！我不会让自己走反这样的错了！顺便告诉大家，朋友，不是每个都好的要会看，做事不要做到让自己后悔！
By WK June 2009''
In Angry mood!
How to say?
Erm...
I have good feeling to since few months ago...
That time, she's with another boy...
And,
So......
Maybe now I really love her
Accidently? Carelessly?
But I don't care!
The most important is I really love she!
I did so much to her,
She didn't trying to dodge me,
Means I still have chance
Eventhough
There's still a man in her heart...
And she trying to make that human
As her friend...
I would try my best!
Try my best to show her that I love she!
It's really
I'm not kidding, not bluffing!!!!
For me this time is real...
I haven't have a such feeling to a girl like now...
The past maybe is the "puppy love"
And now?
What's that love I don't know...
I did so much...
I try to change her shortcoming...
But actually I can inclusive her shortcoming.
Because I love her!
And I should make her as happy as I can...
I think there is no disadvantage that I love she..
And it might improve myself...
Make me study harder,
Make me have a bigger desire...
As much as I love her!
Last time, when I was still active in co-curicular activity, I hate holidays because the camping, in many people's mind they feel that camping is happy because of playing there with friends, learn of skill and so on. For me, the camping is such activity which wasting my time, I don't like it, but it's forced, if I didn't go after camping, I will be screwed. Training Camp? I think there is the thing to show to Kementrian Pendidikan "wah, the school's co-curicular activity is many, the students is actuve and good!"
I hate camping in my school very much! In camping, food is lack of nutricious, fried rice with nothing, cintan noodles which many MSG which causes cancer if overtaking and water with unfilter. Besides, the training cant let us gain anything because, they trin with having no nutritious meals, is that what call training, The effect will equal to zero if train like this. I can sur that I will be more stronger if I train myself in the gymnasium compare with the chindish co-curicular activities/school training camping. Is there dicipline trained afer camping, I think that the students feel more prud and feel that teacher is not there! Teacher is getting salary with your parents through income tax! Dont challange with them! For me the one which not respect to teachers are only the one who too active to the co-curicilar activities.
Examples, a teacher called a scout to help him/her o take something frem the teacher car to staffroom "Oh sorry cannot, my commander is calling me!" What the hell is that? Who is your commander is who? Even he is the Prime Minister, you should also lend the teacher a hand, it's just few minutes it wont cost years of your life, and you wont die faster if you help teacher!
You want to attend co-curicular activities, you must do until peoplr wont dislike you. The things I'm going to told the wolrd is I'm regret of why I have been so active in my actuvities when I was in form 1 and form 2? That what I regret! I feel happy with my choice thats I am not going to the uniform bodies' actuvities! I did it last year. It's such a waste time action!
By WK June 09''
Yesterday (2/6) is her birthday, curent time 0030 so now is consider 3/6. Actually i just have the kind of feeling when look at her, the kind of feeling is difficult to describe by language. That's only to say, I love her, but it's holidays now, I rarely meeet her but I always dreame of she. She is going to be my oxegen soon. Arh!!!!!!!!!!!! But i think she's bringing benefits to me because her result is better than me, and I'm trying to improve myself so that same level with her or even higher to balance it.
I viewed her space, and she wrote about a human, she said that she sad because of that human. She felt disappointed about him cause..... haizzz. If I keep on writting lik this every day, few years later I can written a novel. I chat with her until midnight, not feeling asleep, is that the power of love. My English is not as good as her one, so the things I write here not so well as her one.
Haha.... feel my life full of happiness!!!
There are a lot of birds whispering about you, you should once listen to them and than you would know how much I LOVE YOU!
By WK June 09''
There is many birds in the sky whispering only about you, you should once listen to them than you would know how much I love you! You are the force makes me trying to improve myself into the best!!!!! Happy Birthday!
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